"When I am afraid I will trust in you"
I have spent the last year trying to convince doctors my health has been going down hill. This summer it has been my hardest struggle, many days my body was so weak I spent days just in bed trying to feel better. When heading back to Fresno for school my goal was to find a doctor.
Today I met a doctor I loved, she listened and took my concerns seriously. This was an answer to prayer. However, she does believe I have fibermyalgia, a few blood tests will rule other problems out. I have a long scary road ahead of me. I have a family, friends, and the Lord to support me and help me.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Trip to Texas
So I was able to visit Bryan in Texas for a weekend. Even though the weather was so hot we had an amazing time. He took me to the River Walk, and the Alamo (both beautiful places). Every second was enjoyable, even though things were not perfect. His navigator was not nice and got us lost many times, but even though we had to do many u-turns and hear the navigator yell at us we still had a blast. Because we are so much alike it is easy to calm each other down. When I get stressed he understand, because we function the same way so knows exactly what to say to calm me down. I am blessed to have him in my life!
Monday, July 13, 2009
New Addition
So this summer has been great thus far. So refreshing to see the people in my life who mean so much to me. I love all of them dearly. I also miss the people I have become close with in Fresno, but I will see them soon as summer flies by (like always),
Recently sparks have been flying as I have met someone new. In May I attending a dear friend of mine (Jen and her boyfriends) college graduation party. While there I met Jen's boyfriend's cousin. We met in the perfect way possible watching Sports Center. I knew this was going to be a great friendship after talking about sports for hours. His name is Bryan. The last days in Fresno were spent hanging out with Bryan. He grew up in Washington and is currently in the Navy (because I am always drawn to those military men who are willing to serve our mighty Nation!) He works with the Navy intelligence and is currently in Texas until September and then heading to Hawaii for 3 years.
After he left Fresno to go to Texas and I left Fresno to head back home to Green Valley Lake we continued talking. Not only do we have a passion for sports but we gel so well together and are similar is almost every aspect. The only difference between us so far is he is a 49ers fan and well I love the Packers.
Recently he spent the time and money to come visit me on my favorite holiday 4th of July. We had a wonderful time together, the trip went perfect. At the end of July I am going to visit him in Texas for a weekend. I am so excited to go.
This random way of meeting someone has turned out so great. I am blessed to have met him, and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us! All I know is this has been a great summer. Oh and I am super excited for football season to start so Bryan and I can share our passion of the game together!!!! THANK YOU JESUS
Recently sparks have been flying as I have met someone new. In May I attending a dear friend of mine (Jen and her boyfriends) college graduation party. While there I met Jen's boyfriend's cousin. We met in the perfect way possible watching Sports Center. I knew this was going to be a great friendship after talking about sports for hours. His name is Bryan. The last days in Fresno were spent hanging out with Bryan. He grew up in Washington and is currently in the Navy (because I am always drawn to those military men who are willing to serve our mighty Nation!) He works with the Navy intelligence and is currently in Texas until September and then heading to Hawaii for 3 years.
After he left Fresno to go to Texas and I left Fresno to head back home to Green Valley Lake we continued talking. Not only do we have a passion for sports but we gel so well together and are similar is almost every aspect. The only difference between us so far is he is a 49ers fan and well I love the Packers.
Recently he spent the time and money to come visit me on my favorite holiday 4th of July. We had a wonderful time together, the trip went perfect. At the end of July I am going to visit him in Texas for a weekend. I am so excited to go.
This random way of meeting someone has turned out so great. I am blessed to have met him, and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us! All I know is this has been a great summer. Oh and I am super excited for football season to start so Bryan and I can share our passion of the game together!!!! THANK YOU JESUS
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Prayer
"Then you will call, and the Lord will answer. You will cry, and He will say, 'Here I am,'" Isaiah 58:9
"Ask, and what you are asking for will be given to you. Look, and what you are looking for you will find. Knock, and the door you are knocking on will be opened to you. Everyone who asks receives what he asks for. Everyone who looks finds what he is looking for. Everyone who knocks has the door opened to him." Matthew 7:7-8
May 7th, 2009, many people lived today just like every other day. I must admit today was crazy with school and recovering from a cold. But today marks an important day as Christians across the nation come together kneeling and turning to our almighty God.
Being trapped in my college lifestyle, the first thing I wanted to do, after I heard President Obama would not recognize National Day of Prayer, was to research national day of prayer. The history of the day is interesting. It started in 1952. President Truman along with Congress recognized the importance of the nation turning to the Lord. The United States has so many important issues to address: Internationally, state level, leadership level, and and individuals (every American). When we try handling wars, economical, personal every day struggles ourselves, it becomes a disaster. I know when I think I can handle my life, a thick fog comes across and I am turned upside down. In 1775 the nation turned to the Lord for guidance from the beginning. Historians try altering the foundations of America, but people came to this land to have the freedom to pray and worship the Lord. Every year since 1952, the president reminds us as a nation to stop and pray longer together as AMERICANS. President Obama is the first to stop this tradition.
The Lord has so much grace, as I sit here today I am angry. On Tuesday all of my professors mentioned cinco de mayo, today nobody mentioned the National Day of Prayer. I know I should not be shocked, colleges are not God friendly. I know if I had power I would zap them all how refuse to recognize the day. But instead today I turned to the Lord for compassion, for the people who don't know His unfailing love, His guidance, His mighty power, and His forgiveness.
I pray for our nation often, (as you know I love my country) but today America needed extra prayer. Mrs. Shirley Dobson, NDP chairman, reminds us: "We have lost many of our freedoms in America because we have been asleep. I feel if we do not become involved and support the annual National Day of Prayer, we could end up forfeiting this freedom, too."
"Ask, and what you are asking for will be given to you. Look, and what you are looking for you will find. Knock, and the door you are knocking on will be opened to you. Everyone who asks receives what he asks for. Everyone who looks finds what he is looking for. Everyone who knocks has the door opened to him." Matthew 7:7-8
May 7th, 2009, many people lived today just like every other day. I must admit today was crazy with school and recovering from a cold. But today marks an important day as Christians across the nation come together kneeling and turning to our almighty God.
Being trapped in my college lifestyle, the first thing I wanted to do, after I heard President Obama would not recognize National Day of Prayer, was to research national day of prayer. The history of the day is interesting. It started in 1952. President Truman along with Congress recognized the importance of the nation turning to the Lord. The United States has so many important issues to address: Internationally, state level, leadership level, and and individuals (every American). When we try handling wars, economical, personal every day struggles ourselves, it becomes a disaster. I know when I think I can handle my life, a thick fog comes across and I am turned upside down. In 1775 the nation turned to the Lord for guidance from the beginning. Historians try altering the foundations of America, but people came to this land to have the freedom to pray and worship the Lord. Every year since 1952, the president reminds us as a nation to stop and pray longer together as AMERICANS. President Obama is the first to stop this tradition.
The Lord has so much grace, as I sit here today I am angry. On Tuesday all of my professors mentioned cinco de mayo, today nobody mentioned the National Day of Prayer. I know I should not be shocked, colleges are not God friendly. I know if I had power I would zap them all how refuse to recognize the day. But instead today I turned to the Lord for compassion, for the people who don't know His unfailing love, His guidance, His mighty power, and His forgiveness.
I pray for our nation often, (as you know I love my country) but today America needed extra prayer. Mrs. Shirley Dobson, NDP chairman, reminds us: "We have lost many of our freedoms in America because we have been asleep. I feel if we do not become involved and support the annual National Day of Prayer, we could end up forfeiting this freedom, too."
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Hope
"And my God will give you everything you need because of His great riches in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:19
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Picking the Right Roadtrip
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4
"I will show you and teach you in the way you should go. I will tell you what to do with My eye upon you." Psalm 32:8
So I am on the down hill slope of school. I mean I am closer and closer to graduating. Which many people would love, me on the other hand am terrified. I have no idea what I want to do, I think I am way too young to decide. However, I am a planner and have made a few different ideas.
The first one was Mass Communications, focusing on Broadcast Journalism. I would love to become a sports reporter, and talk about football especially, what an amazing job. I am currently in a media writing class, and a media ethics course. See the thing is, I do love sports but I definitely love the Lord way more. The media is a liberal place, and just in the classes alone they try to challenge my belief and way of thinking. I do not bend when it comes to the Lord and my values and not willing to bend for a job I would love. I am one to stand up for myself. So even though it has been a long dream to become a reporter I will still be a sports fan in the comfort of my home only. And now I just have to hope I am walking down the street and meet the Packers! One day I will still meet them!
The second idea I have is history. I have liked history since I was in the 5th grade, then in middle school and high school Ms. McCreery, an amazing teacher who had a great impact in my life, taught me to love history. So I am going to get at least a BA in history. I would some day like to focus on teaching at community college, I think I could help and encourage many with the Lord's help and be a light to others through Him.
However, my last idea is the newest idea but also my favorite. I am taking a wedding planning class this semester it was suppose to be a fun class, and it has turned into a wonderful class I love. I love going to weddings and love helping the bride as much as possible when I am in a wedding. I love to be organized and many know I carry my planner just about everywhere. The teacher for this class owns her own planning business and wedding dress shop. She has allowed me on the day of her weddings to help. I go in the mornings and set up the reception and ceremony. After my health problems are more under control I plan on applying for an official internship with her. Meanwhile, I am going to also be working towards my event planning certificate. That way I can work other events, not just weddings and maybe some day work for a company (maybe even a sports team!) So, this is my plan
I do know that the Lord knows my final plan and He will guide me, although I am really hoping He blesses my event planning idea. So you never know maybe I will become an official wedding planner!!!
"I will show you and teach you in the way you should go. I will tell you what to do with My eye upon you." Psalm 32:8
So I am on the down hill slope of school. I mean I am closer and closer to graduating. Which many people would love, me on the other hand am terrified. I have no idea what I want to do, I think I am way too young to decide. However, I am a planner and have made a few different ideas.
The first one was Mass Communications, focusing on Broadcast Journalism. I would love to become a sports reporter, and talk about football especially, what an amazing job. I am currently in a media writing class, and a media ethics course. See the thing is, I do love sports but I definitely love the Lord way more. The media is a liberal place, and just in the classes alone they try to challenge my belief and way of thinking. I do not bend when it comes to the Lord and my values and not willing to bend for a job I would love. I am one to stand up for myself. So even though it has been a long dream to become a reporter I will still be a sports fan in the comfort of my home only. And now I just have to hope I am walking down the street and meet the Packers! One day I will still meet them!
The second idea I have is history. I have liked history since I was in the 5th grade, then in middle school and high school Ms. McCreery, an amazing teacher who had a great impact in my life, taught me to love history. So I am going to get at least a BA in history. I would some day like to focus on teaching at community college, I think I could help and encourage many with the Lord's help and be a light to others through Him.
However, my last idea is the newest idea but also my favorite. I am taking a wedding planning class this semester it was suppose to be a fun class, and it has turned into a wonderful class I love. I love going to weddings and love helping the bride as much as possible when I am in a wedding. I love to be organized and many know I carry my planner just about everywhere. The teacher for this class owns her own planning business and wedding dress shop. She has allowed me on the day of her weddings to help. I go in the mornings and set up the reception and ceremony. After my health problems are more under control I plan on applying for an official internship with her. Meanwhile, I am going to also be working towards my event planning certificate. That way I can work other events, not just weddings and maybe some day work for a company (maybe even a sports team!) So, this is my plan
I do know that the Lord knows my final plan and He will guide me, although I am really hoping He blesses my event planning idea. So you never know maybe I will become an official wedding planner!!!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Trials
"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." ~James 1:2-4
For the past ten months I have noticed sudden changes within my body. The first one which has been hard is hair loss. My hair has been falling out in large clumps. Many people who know me thought it was due to stress since I stress easily, and it has not been the easiest year for me. Well when you are 21 years old losing your hair lets say things become more stressful. Then I moved to Fresno, my body temp. would not become regular, I thought it was due to the miserable heat up here. I would be so hot, and then be so cold I was shaking. Then then the last thing my body became weak, to the point where I was so achy I could not walk to classes without taking a break. I would sleep all the time. My body finally crashed....
...So I went to the Doctors while I was home for Christmas break. After prayer they discovered
my thyroids are not producing the hormones that give my body energy. They have put me on medication I will be taking the rest of my life. They don't expect the medication to start working in full effects for about a year to two years. It takes the doctors awhile to figure out the amount of hormone my body is needing. For the next few years I will have to leave Fresno and go home for blood tests. This is a little stressful because my classes this semester are going to be demanding.
I am a person who likes to take things in my own hands, I like having control in my life. The past two years my control has been taken away from me. My family lost our home in the wildfire, so my life was changed, control slowly was taken from me. Then my life plans were taken from me this past summer, everything I had planned for life changed. I am still struggling as I start a new path for life. Then the control of my health was taken from me. This has been an on going trial, however, I was ignoring from my trial, until now. The Lord has been trying to take that control of my life, by placing trials so I would turn to Him, I do turn to the Lord, but not completely. I was thinking it is funny I do not give Him my life, it would be less stressful, and benefit me. After my thyroid problem I believe that I am ready to dedicate my life again this time giving my Heavenly Father control of my life, and guide me completely.
I used to read James and be confused how trials are a blessing, until the Lord blessed me with many trials one after another until I finally am willing to surrender. I love you Lord and I give my heart.
For the past ten months I have noticed sudden changes within my body. The first one which has been hard is hair loss. My hair has been falling out in large clumps. Many people who know me thought it was due to stress since I stress easily, and it has not been the easiest year for me. Well when you are 21 years old losing your hair lets say things become more stressful. Then I moved to Fresno, my body temp. would not become regular, I thought it was due to the miserable heat up here. I would be so hot, and then be so cold I was shaking. Then then the last thing my body became weak, to the point where I was so achy I could not walk to classes without taking a break. I would sleep all the time. My body finally crashed....
...So I went to the Doctors while I was home for Christmas break. After prayer they discovered
my thyroids are not producing the hormones that give my body energy. They have put me on medication I will be taking the rest of my life. They don't expect the medication to start working in full effects for about a year to two years. It takes the doctors awhile to figure out the amount of hormone my body is needing. For the next few years I will have to leave Fresno and go home for blood tests. This is a little stressful because my classes this semester are going to be demanding.
I am a person who likes to take things in my own hands, I like having control in my life. The past two years my control has been taken away from me. My family lost our home in the wildfire, so my life was changed, control slowly was taken from me. Then my life plans were taken from me this past summer, everything I had planned for life changed. I am still struggling as I start a new path for life. Then the control of my health was taken from me. This has been an on going trial, however, I was ignoring from my trial, until now. The Lord has been trying to take that control of my life, by placing trials so I would turn to Him, I do turn to the Lord, but not completely. I was thinking it is funny I do not give Him my life, it would be less stressful, and benefit me. After my thyroid problem I believe that I am ready to dedicate my life again this time giving my Heavenly Father control of my life, and guide me completely.
I used to read James and be confused how trials are a blessing, until the Lord blessed me with many trials one after another until I finally am willing to surrender. I love you Lord and I give my heart.
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