Adjusting

So great news is I only have the rest of this semester and next semester in Fresno. Then I am done at Fresno State and get to complete a new chapter in my life. Here is the one thing though that seems to bother me. At home most people know me as someone who cares and very reliable. I enjoy showing the Lords love to others. Once I moved to Fresno I starting having my health problems along with spending more time studying due to the hard history classes I take. Because of these changes the people I have met in Fresno don't seem to know the real me. I am not as helpful, and dependable as I would like to be. I think because I know most time is spend laying in bed building energy to go to school or show up to work I don't want to let people down. I can't make plans for the weekend and promise I will be there. I cannot be the true friend I have always loved being. This change sadens me. I know the Lord has a plan with this and I think it is to show others the strength I have through the Lord and the faith I have in the Lord, but I liked also showing the Lord's love. So as my chapter in Fresno closes soon, I have to keep my chin up high and not regret anything. The Lord knows. There is a great quote in my bible study this morning that stated, "Cling to hope and My rays of Light will reach you through the darkness" So my hope continues and my faith in the Lord continues as my health trial become the focus and changes in my life.