Christmas Break

"For by Grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of GOD" Ephesians 2:8

Faith, it is easy to say I am going to walk by faith, but so much harder to act on it. When the new year hits many look to the future for hope and a better year than the last. I am starting to learn that I need to look at the past year to see where I need to become more faithful.

2008 the beginning was all faith, my whole trust had to be on what school I should attend, the Lord was faithful to me by leading me to Fresno State. When the summer got rough, and my life changed in many ways I again was blessed by my parents who comforted me and also prepared me to go live on my own for the first time. I also Sara who made me a mix I still listen to all the time, and knew the situation I was going in to and knew just what to do to make me smile every day. Even when she was five hours away she still found ways to lift me up and destress me. Then I Zoe who checked up on me weekly to make sure Fresno was good but not too good where I would not want to come home. Then there are friends like Roxy, Cassie, and Lauren. Our lives are busy and stressful but those few minutes that we can talk I cherish forever. I love hearing their lovely voices over the phone. All of those people helped me get through a rough patch in my life.

Once in Fresno I met lovely people as well, although my faith started changing. Stress and a busy life got the best for me. This is where I look back on the year and say Yikes. School consumed my time, and slowly the Lord, friends, and family were not the focus. Honestly I want my priorities straight. By the end of the year I was frustarted, my life had always been planned out and all that changed, then the rebuilding of my parents house has been a struggle I was five hours aways and could not help them much, then personal health problems for me, and of course a hard semester had me down and hopeless. But honestly why, the Lord had been faithful up to the point I let him go.

Christmas break was a great few weeks for me to think and reflect. Although more weeks off of school would be amazing I am refreshed and ready to go back to Fresno. Although of course before I go to Fresno I will shed my tears saying good bye to all the people I love so much, then after that and I am in Fresno I will make. I had a semester to try out living on my own and managing time, this next semester my life is going to be handed back into the Lord's hands. My path will be lit by the Lord's light not my own.