Life is too short

Wow, I need to catch up on here more often! To put everyone up to speed with me I only have to focus on 3 things. Guess my life is pretty much the same .


"My sister all grown up now"

1st-School is going well. I am so blessed the Lord directed me to Fresno State, the professors have been great, friends are a huge support, and I have grown so much. I thought I would struggle living on my own, however, I have done well and continue to enjoy it. Even though I miss home very much. I will be done with school next fall with a degree in History. Yeah! then after that who knows, I am up for suggestions though!

"This might just be the best picture of Bryan and I.... Ok maybe not the best but it is funny"


2nd-I am still with Bryan. We are still learning about each other and growing. He is stationed in Hawaii now. I have been blessed to visit him over New Years. We got to watch football together and spend every second laughing or doing something crazy. Because we have so much in common it is so easy to get lost together and let the day fly by. I am still working on a way to freeze time so I don't ever have to say goodbye. But I hope to see him in May or this summer. He has been so great with the changes in my life, meaning my health and does a great job of lifting me up and supporting me.

3rd- Speaking of which my health is the center of my life now, not because I want it to, but because it has to. Each day is planned around my body and what it can do or handle. My parents have been so loving and concerned they found a specialist to see down in LA. I see him about every 3-5 weeks (which makes it hard being in Fresno). He knows that I don't want to depend on medications so I am on very little medications and more on supplements. Other than school and little work I lay in bed to restore my energy so I will be able to have painless or little pain days at some point in my life. The great thing about staying in bed all the time is I am forced to be a good student! Nothing to do other than homework. =-) I take each day at a time. There are still many side effects from fibromyalgia my body will still experience and weaken me that will put a battle in my life, but I am ready to tackle those when they come. I am using this time as a learning experience and a way to make me stronger. I have learned not to take the little things for granted, like I used to. The Lord has humbled me in more ways than I ever thought He could (after all He did give me a thick skull). After our house burnt down years ago I learned not to depend on stuff, and stuff is not important in life. I can be happy without. Now I am learning to be happy for the little things in life, the ability to walk to school still, or even get an education, visit with friends every once in awhile. I am thankful for my parents who have helped me through this and are a huge support and help. My friends and Bryan who love me and are there. I know one day through the Lord I will be able to have a normal day again without pain and suffering, and if not I will still have a smile on my face.

So yeah that is about it. I hope to write more now that I have more time on my hands!

Fibermyalgia

"When I am afraid I will trust in you"

I have spent the last year trying to convince doctors my health has been going down hill. This summer it has been my hardest struggle, many days my body was so weak I spent days just in bed trying to feel better. When heading back to Fresno for school my goal was to find a doctor.

Today I met a doctor I loved, she listened and took my concerns seriously. This was an answer to prayer. However, she does believe I have fibermyalgia, a few blood tests will rule other problems out. I have a long scary road ahead of me. I have a family, friends, and the Lord to support me and help me.

Trip to Texas

So I was able to visit Bryan in Texas for a weekend. Even though the weather was so hot we had an amazing time. He took me to the River Walk, and the Alamo (both beautiful places). Every second was enjoyable, even though things were not perfect. His navigator was not nice and got us lost many times, but even though we had to do many u-turns and hear the navigator yell at us we still had a blast. Because we are so much alike it is easy to calm each other down. When I get stressed he understand, because we function the same way so knows exactly what to say to calm me down. I am blessed to have him in my life!

New Addition

So this summer has been great thus far. So refreshing to see the people in my life who mean so much to me. I love all of them dearly. I also miss the people I have become close with in Fresno, but I will see them soon as summer flies by (like always),

Recently sparks have been flying as I have met someone new. In May I attending a dear friend of mine (Jen and her boyfriends) college graduation party. While there I met Jen's boyfriend's cousin. We met in the perfect way possible watching Sports Center. I knew this was going to be a great friendship after talking about sports for hours. His name is Bryan. The last days in Fresno were spent hanging out with Bryan. He grew up in Washington and is currently in the Navy (because I am always drawn to those military men who are willing to serve our mighty Nation!) He works with the Navy intelligence and is currently in Texas until September and then heading to Hawaii for 3 years.

After he left Fresno to go to Texas and I left Fresno to head back home to Green Valley Lake we continued talking. Not only do we have a passion for sports but we gel so well together and are similar is almost every aspect. The only difference between us so far is he is a 49ers fan and well I love the Packers.

Recently he spent the time and money to come visit me on my favorite holiday 4th of July. We had a wonderful time together, the trip went perfect. At the end of July I am going to visit him in Texas for a weekend. I am so excited to go.

This random way of meeting someone has turned out so great. I am blessed to have met him, and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us! All I know is this has been a great summer. Oh and I am super excited for football season to start so Bryan and I can share our passion of the game together!!!! THANK YOU JESUS

Prayer

"Then you will call, and the Lord will answer. You will cry, and He will say, 'Here I am,'" Isaiah 58:9

"Ask, and what you are asking for will be given to you. Look, and what you are looking for you will find. Knock, and the door you are knocking on will be opened to you. Everyone who asks receives what he asks for. Everyone who looks finds what he is looking for. Everyone who knocks has the door opened to him." Matthew 7:7-8

May 7th, 2009, many people lived today just like every other day. I must admit today was crazy with school and recovering from a cold. But today marks an important day as Christians across the nation come together kneeling and turning to our almighty God.

Being trapped in my college lifestyle, the first thing I wanted to do, after I heard President Obama would not recognize National Day of Prayer, was to research national day of prayer. The history of the day is interesting. It started in 1952. President Truman along with Congress recognized the importance of the nation turning to the Lord. The United States has so many important issues to address: Internationally, state level, leadership level, and and individuals (every American). When we try handling wars, economical, personal every day struggles ourselves, it becomes a disaster. I know when I think I can handle my life, a thick fog comes across and I am turned upside down. In 1775 the nation turned to the Lord for guidance from the beginning. Historians try altering the foundations of America, but people came to this land to have the freedom to pray and worship the Lord. Every year since 1952, the president reminds us as a nation to stop and pray longer together as AMERICANS. President Obama is the first to stop this tradition.

The Lord has so much grace, as I sit here today I am angry. On Tuesday all of my professors mentioned cinco de mayo, today nobody mentioned the National Day of Prayer. I know I should not be shocked, colleges are not God friendly. I know if I had power I would zap them all how refuse to recognize the day. But instead today I turned to the Lord for compassion, for the people who don't know His unfailing love, His guidance, His mighty power, and His forgiveness.

I pray for our nation often, (as you know I love my country) but today America needed extra prayer. Mrs. Shirley Dobson, NDP chairman, reminds us: "We have lost many of our freedoms in America because we have been asleep. I feel if we do not become involved and support the annual National Day of Prayer, we could end up forfeiting this freedom, too."

Hope

"And my God will give you everything you need because of His great riches in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:19

Picking the Right Roadtrip

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4
"I will show you and teach you in the way you should go. I will tell you what to do with My eye upon you." Psalm 32:8

So I am on the down hill slope of school. I mean I am closer and closer to graduating. Which many people would love, me on the other hand am terrified. I have no idea what I want to do, I think I am way too young to decide. However, I am a planner and have made a few different ideas.

The first one was Mass Communications, focusing on Broadcast Journalism. I would love to become a sports reporter, and talk about football especially, what an amazing job. I am currently in a media writing class, and a media ethics course. See the thing is, I do love sports but I definitely love the Lord way more. The media is a liberal place, and just in the classes alone they try to challenge my belief and way of thinking. I do not bend when it comes to the Lord and my values and not willing to bend for a job I would love. I am one to stand up for myself. So even though it has been a long dream to become a reporter I will still be a sports fan in the comfort of my home only. And now I just have to hope I am walking down the street and meet the Packers! One day I will still meet them!

The second idea I have is history. I have liked history since I was in the 5th grade, then in middle school and high school Ms. McCreery, an amazing teacher who had a great impact in my life, taught me to love history. So I am going to get at least a BA in history. I would some day like to focus on teaching at community college, I think I could help and encourage many with the Lord's help and be a light to others through Him.

However, my last idea is the newest idea but also my favorite. I am taking a wedding planning class this semester it was suppose to be a fun class, and it has turned into a wonderful class I love. I love going to weddings and love helping the bride as much as possible when I am in a wedding. I love to be organized and many know I carry my planner just about everywhere. The teacher for this class owns her own planning business and wedding dress shop. She has allowed me on the day of her weddings to help. I go in the mornings and set up the reception and ceremony. After my health problems are more under control I plan on applying for an official internship with her. Meanwhile, I am going to also be working towards my event planning certificate. That way I can work other events, not just weddings and maybe some day work for a company (maybe even a sports team!) So, this is my plan

I do know that the Lord knows my final plan and He will guide me, although I am really hoping He blesses my event planning idea. So you never know maybe I will become an official wedding planner!!!